Her Reflection
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So I've been working on this add - on to "Face of The Enemy" and
also a Imzadi scene rich companion to "The Host." Please excuse typos.
Paramount owns the characters. Enjoy! Let me know what you think. - Amanda Gayle
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He stood in the at the center point, halfway between the doors of sickbay and
the biobed she was sitting on. She didn't know exactly how to feel about the
things she'd been through in the past few days – she felt the energy draining
out of her as she was finally still, both emotionally and physically. Perched
on the edge of the bed, Deanna tried not to focus on the thoughts floating to
surface in her mind. She played with her hands nervously, glancing up to meet
Will's gaze. He'd been standing in the same spot for several minutes just staring
in her direction.
"Will, what are you doing?" She asked him, looking deeply, curiously
into his beautiful blue eyes.
"I'm memorizing your face," he said simply and softly. He didn't move,
just stood there his hands behind his back.
"Commander," she said drawing the word out, her accent thick. The
counselor pulled her gaze from his once more looking down. "You've been
looking at my face for almost ten years now. I doubt you're going to forget
what it looks like."
"Let's just say I want to remember," he said walking over to her.
Riker leaned close, whispering in her ear. "And never take for granted
again how lucky I am to look at the face of a woman I love every day."
The commander leaned back, lifting Deanna's chin with the tip of his finger.
"You are so beautiful."
"Thank you." She mouthed, squeezing his hand. He held her small fingers
interlaced with his own.
"Dea, You're trembling." The counselor nodded slightly in acknowledgement.
The commander glanced over to where Doctor Crusher stood talking to one of her
nurses, nearby. He was able to catch her eye, as Beverly was already excusing
herself from the Lt.
Will ran a soothing hand over Deanna's arm as the doctor approached.
"Everything okay?" Crusher asked.
"Bev, Deanna's shaking is there anything ..." But the counselor interrupted,
not even attempting to hide the tiredness in her voice.
"It's been an intense few days, Commander. Nothing to be concerned over."
Deanna looked to Beverly who watched the exchange as she reached down deep into
her lab coat pocket and pulled free a hypospray.
"Listen to her Will. She knows what she's talking about," the doctor
smiled, putting a hand gently on the counselor's back, trying to still the tremor
that seemed to be making its way through the Betazoid's tiny frame. "I
can give you something to help ease the anxiety, until you've had some rest
and some time to sort through all you've been through."
Troi nodded her consent. Will brushed back the dark curls from Deanna's shoulders
as Beverly released the medicine into her neck. He couldn't help feeling protective,
knowing the stress of the facade the counselor had been forced to uphold aboard
the warbird must have effected her deeply. She hated taking medicine for anything.
"There that should help." The doctor said. "You're free to go
when you're ready Dea ..." She said as the counselor began to ease herself
from the biobed. "And Deanna I want you to take a couple of days off. Get
some sleep, read a good book, take some time for yourself Counselor."
"Okay, Thank you Beverly." The doctor hugged her friend.
"Good to have you back." She said, nudging Riker in the arm. "Go
get her something to eat commander. I'm sure the traditional Romulan cuisine
she's been eating has been less than appetizing. She's probably starving."
Beverly winked and Deanna smiled as the doctor walked away.
"I brought you something to wear," Riker told her, gesturing toward
the bag he'd lay down next to her. The counselor peeked inside, pulling out
a well-worn pair of blue jeans (one of the most comfortable items of clothing
she owned, she'd had them for years), socks and sneakers, and an oversized long
sleeved tee – shirt that had belonged to Riker himself.
"Perfect." She said, stretching up to kiss his cheek.
"Go," he told her. "Go change. We'll go have some dinner."
He took comfort in the smile he saw gracing her face as she disappeared into
an exam room to take of the sickbay gown she was wearing and put on something
of her own.
Will lay in the darkness of his quarters thinking about the meal he'd just
shared with Deanna. He was surprised she'd made it through the entire dinner
without nodding off, but he'd managed to get her to eat some soup and a salad,
though didn't have to twist her arm to convince her to share a piece of chocolate
cake with him for dessert. He and Deanna had chosen to eat in one of her favorite
places onboard the ship. While most officers spent there off duty time socializing
in Ten-Forward, Deanna sometimes enjoyed getting away from all of the chatter
and battering of being in close contact with so many emotions. There was an
observation deck on Deck 15 with a few tables and Riker had replicated some
dinner for the two of them and they'd hidden away at a table near the window
of the empty room.
While he sipped on some coffee, Deanna had accepted a hot cup of tea and she
opened up about her time aboard the warbird and the fears she'd had to suppress
while impersonating a member of the Tal Shiar. She'd explained how she'd gone
to sleep one night at the neurophysiology seminar she'd been attending and had
woken up to darkness & a pounding headache. She'd been dizzy and unable
to stay steady on her feet, finally standing when the computer hadn't responded
to her request for lights. When Deanna had finally found the button that would
bring up the lights she was staring into the mirror at the face of a Romulan.
She had been drugged, surgically altered, and only moments after awakening –
without much briefing from the man who'd brought her onboard, she had been paraded
in front of the ship's Commander, Toreth.
Listening, Will could finally hear the fear and anxiety Deanna felt aboard the
ship of one of the Federation's most threatening enemies. He knew because of
Deanna's own personality – her gentle nature, other's may have been surprised
by her performance under such pressure. But Will had seen the other side of
the Enterprise's counselor on several occasions, and he knew that at times what
was mistaken as fragility was actually an inner strength that could withstand
many a challenge. He ached for what she had gone through, having to be so strong
and quick on her feet – knowing that she lacked that natural aggression expected
of the Romulans and especially the Tal Shiar as well as command and tactical
experience.
Her eyes teared up as she spoke of the sacrifice of Subcommander N'Vek and how
she'd watched Toreth have him vaporized as he stood next to her. He knew if
they'd not gotten Deanna off that ship when they did, it could have been mere
moments before she was served the same fate. Deanna knew it as well. He could
tell the brush with her own mortality, coming so close to losing her life was
something she was having trouble dealing with. For now, she had the emotions
held in check tightly within her chest. Having been in dangerous positions many
times himself, Will knew she would need to talk about it – to get it out. She
wasn't ready yet. He focused on his own emotions – his relief at having her
back and safely onboard the ship, his love for her, feelings of contentment
and comfort. He hoped she'd felt his protectiveness sheltering her and that
the positive emotions had overshadowed his own fears – the fears that had threatened
to overwhelm him when he saw her on the warbird and stood helpless on the bridge
of their own ship, unable to do anything to help her.
Riker found his mind floating in between sleep and consciousness as he thought
about the things he and Deanna had discussed at dinner. She'd insisted she would
be alright when he dropped her off at her quarters and after getting ready for
bed, himself – he found that despite the tiredness he felt in his muscles, the
heaviness of his eyelids, a deep and restful sleep was refusing to come. So
he settled for the in between.
Just as the commander's body was about to give in to the sleep it had been fighting,
he heard a rustling and opened his eyes. Will lay there staring up at the ceiling
for a moment before turning his head in the direction the sound had come from.
Leaning against the frame of the doorway to his bedroom, stood Deanna. She was
wearing the shirt he had taken to her in sickbay earlier, Riker written on the
left side in small blue letters. The sleeves were pushed up to her elbows. The
shirt fell just above her knees, her legs bare. Her curly hair was down, the
length of it, brushing against her shoulders. She looked beautiful. Achingly
tired, but beautiful.
Will looked at her as she stared in his direction saying nothing, just absorbing
his presence.
"Imzadi," He said softly, "What are you doing all the way over
there?" He grinned and she smiled over at him. He propped himself up on
his arm, turning over and waiting for her response.
"I wanted to memorize your face," She said sweetly. He chuckled.
"And you walked all the way from your quarters to mine in your sleep shirt?"
He teased her. "I'm sure there are quite a few happy young ensigns that
were glad to pass you in the night."
She raised a perfectly arched eyebrow, biting down slightly on her lip. "There
was a robe."
"Ah," He stood up. "You know as a person who has recently had
the privilege of memorizing someone's face." He said as he walked over
to her. "I would imagine it to be a whole lot more difficult, in the dark
and from so far away." He pulled her into his arms and she buried her face
in his chest. Deanna pulled him tight, her palms flat on his bare back. He was
warm and so safe.
"I couldn't sleep." She murmured, muffled against him.
"Me either." He told her, resting his head on top of hers.
"Will?" She chided.
"What?" He asked playfully. "I wasn't asleep … yet – almost.
But I seem to be having a waking dream. This gorgeous woman I know – "
"Imzadi," She asked pulling away so that she could look up at him.
"Is – is this okay? Me being here?"
"Why would you even ask that Dea?" He said, taking both her hands
in his. "Best way I've been woken up in a very long time."
"I thought you weren't asleep," she laughed lightly, tugging at one
of his hands. But Will was busy watching her, looking intently at her face.
Her dark eyes with sleepy circles under them, smudged a bit from what little
makeup she had put on before dinner. The tip of her nose was red, her cheeks
dotted pink and he could tell she had been crying before she'd come to him.
He left her for a second, right where she stood, and went into his bathroom.
Will dipped a washcloth under some warm water and wrung it out, walking over
to her. Without a word, he put one hand underneath her hair – so easy to become
tangled in, and cupped her neck. Deanna leaned back, her face turned upward
and her eyes closed as Riker began to gently run the cloth over her face. He
wiped the warmth of it over her forehead, under her eyes, her cheeks, her nose,
that aristocratic little chin and then he repeated the action – soothing her.
When he had finished, he looked down at his Imzadi. Her eyes still closed to
his touch and he kissed her lightly on her cheek, the tip of her nose, before
moving to the other cheek, her forehead, and then lightly, her left eye, the
right. Finally giving her a soft kiss on her lips. Deanna opened her eyes, those
deep onyx orbs and whispered to him.
"I couldn't look in the mirror." He had known without her even saying
the words. He hugged her to him again.
"You know, your side of the bed has been awfully cold lately." He
felt her smile and then nod her against him. He kissed the top of her head before,
taking her hand and leading her over to his bed. Will climbed in, before lifting
up the covers and pulling Deanna down next to him. She snuggled into his embrace.
"How do you know I still like the same side of the bed?" She asked
him with a yawn. He ran his hands up and down her back, until he felt her relax
against him.
"Some things never change Imzadi," He breathed out against her ear.
"Some things ..." She repeated. "Will, what if someone … ?"
She let her voice trail off feeling childish, her mind already heavy with sleep.
"Not on my watch, Dea." He told her, hugging her close. "Not
on mine." Will felt Deanna's breath even out and he knew she'd fallen into
a much needed sleep. He glanced over at the soft glow of light coming from the
open window … the shade up, the stars moving in bright lines. In the glass he
could make out her face, as she lay against him, her head on his chest. Immaculate
reflection. He closed his eyes, welcoming the restful sleep he knew would now
come, everything back as it should be.
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