By Carol Sandford
Deanna's level of anxiety rose tenfold when Will was away from the safety of
the ship. No one knew the perils that lay beyond its metal hull, and no one knew
who was friend or foe, until it was usually too late.
So far, life had been "kind" to them, but they all knew that one
day, someone or something would not be kind enough to spare their lives. Deanna
fretted with these thoughts every time her Imzadi went on a mission.
Will wearily sat back in his chair as he relaxed after the mission which, for
a pleasant change, went without any hitches. However, he also felt it was one
boring trip out and a waste of time. William T. Riker lived for the promise of
adventure. Secretly, it was one of the main reasons he did not really push for
promotion. Once he was Captain, he would be stuck on board with his executive
officer getting all the juicy assignments, and, most of the time, having all the
Will's eyes briefly glanced over to Deanna, who was staring off into space.
As he yet again sat and admired her, he felt himself grow warm with the glow
that existed even if they were not strictly a "couple".
But as much as Will loved her, and as much as he would like to become as
intimate as they were on Betazed, he wanted things to stay just as they were.
The concept of Deanna becoming his wife made him break out into a cold sweat.
The very thought of him not returning to her one day from an away mission was
more than he could bear to think about. No matter how much he loved her, Will
was determined that on board, friends was how they were going to stay.
Deanna caught Will's glance and threw a teasing smile his way. His eyes
sparkled in response, no doubt with his own brand of mischief, and she knew that
he was thinking about her, and them.
Will Riker had become her closest buddy, and he was there for her...always.
Sometimes, they came so close to crossing over the barrier from friends to
lovers, but they both always managed to stop themselves, mindless of their
bodies screaming out for the loving they both wanted so much.
Deanna hated it when Will went on away missions. Not knowing if he was coming
back alive left an ache that reached down to her very soul, whilst her relief
was just as intense when he shimmered back into existence on his return. For
this reason alone, she refused to contemplate taking the relationship any
further than it already had.
~*~*~*~*~ Deanna watched him as he walked along the edge of the shoreline,
the frothy surf washing away his footsteps almost before he had left them. She
admired his tall, lean body, bare except for the shorts that hugged his
never-ending long legs and she ached for him before he had even reached her.
"Hello Will, you took your time tonight, I was beginning to think you
had stood me up."
Her eyes teased him as she watched him walk up to her and soon she found
herself gathered within his arms. As Will swung her around, Deanna's laughter
was swallowed in their deep kiss. Deanna clung to his body as she slowly slid
her down his length, enveloped totally within his embrace. Will's hunger for her
echoed in the groan that found its way up from deep within him. He brought his
hands up to gently cup her face, placing tiny kisses all over her face as he
"I love you Deanna, I need you..Let me love you Imzadi."
By the time they had both sank to their knees onto the soft, damp sand, they
were free of the few scraps of clothings that had seperated them. And as the
moonlight shadows danced over the now re-united lovers bound together in that
intimate dance, the gentle waves washed over their bodies, trying it's best to
tug apart the two spirits that had melted into each other but failed to cool the
hot desires that poured from deep inside their very souls. The roar of the
distant surf drowned their cries as they exalted in the ecstasy of their secret
Will watched Deanna from the bar as he drank with one of the visitors that
had come aboard two days ago from a ship in need of repairs. They had been very
pleasant guests, and one in particular had obviously become attracted to Deanna,
much to Will's chagrin. Now he found himself watching them, wondering if they
had become lovers.
"Does their 'attraction' to each other bother you Commander Riker?"
Will looked back to his companion, startled from his reverie and slightly
embarrassed at having been caught mulling over something that was not his
business, his response came out harsher than he intended.
"Of course not, Ranshell...Counselor Troi and I are purely business
colleagues, I have no claims on her what-so-ever. Whoever she chooses to be
'intimate' with, is fine by me."
The elder man studied the handsome Commander across from him, noting that he
had glanced back to check on the couple, who had now risen from their chairs. He
also watched Will stiffen as Jaran placed his arm around Deanna's shoulder as he
pulled her towards him to whisper into her ear.
Clearly, their relationship had reached intimacy, and now they were going to
explore that intimacy in the privacy of their own sanctuary. Ranshell looked
back to Will, who had turned back to face him, with a nervous, and very fake
grin now firmly placed upon his face.
"Pardon me for being blunt sir but...That is one of the biggest lies I
think I have ever heard...Sir."
Will stared at him open-mouthed and astounded as the tiny man slid off his
stool and made his way over towards Geordi. My god, was it THAT obvious so that
a stranger could pick up his feeling for her? He was going to have to try harder
to mask his emotions; otherwise everyone was going to know how much he really
felt for her, and he did not want that to happen...ever.
~*~*~*~*~Deanna propped herself up on her elbow, her fingers casually tracing
a path down his chest, coming to settle low on his stomach. Will reached down to
pick up her hand and cradled it upon his chest. Each looked into desire filled
eyes, hers dark and sultry, his blazing blue, both reading the rapture that
radiated from within them.
Moving together, they tasted each others lips, tentatively at first, and savoured the sensation that rapidly built before hunger took over. Deanna found herself being dragged on top of his body as they began that age old familiar embrace. Throughout the universe, there would never be anything to replace this sacred act of intimacy of hearts and minds and body and souls joining together for the ultimate act of love, made all the more precious because they were Imzadi. ~*~*~*~*~
The two women sat opposite each other in their aerobics class, stretching
tense, tired muscles and relaxing their minds. Beverly Crusher noticed that
Deanna looked almost serene as she wandered off into her own little universe,
her movements automatic from the constant sessions every week. Usually, they
exercised in relative silence, but the secretive little smile on her friend«s
face intrigued her.
"So...How are things?"
Deanna glanced at the strikingly beautiful redhead, surprised at her
"What do mean?"
So, it was going to be like that was it, Beverly wondered to herself.
"Oh, I just wondered, you know, are you happy? How are things are
between you and Will?"
As soon as she had said Will's name, Beverly knew Deanna was hiding
something. Again Deanna feigned innocence.
"Wha...What do you mean? What makes you ask?"
"Oh, just curious...I haven't seen you much outside of working hours,
and come to think of it... I haven't seen much of Will either."
Beverly looked quickly at the darkly mysterious Betazoid for the blush that
was sure to give the game away, inwardly triumphant at the telltale red spot
that appeared on Deanna«s high cheekbone.
Deanna felt her pulse quicken as she realised she was digging herself into a
deep hole. She knew Beverly had picked up on her flustered embarrassment. She
had been taken by surprise and had not managed to mask her feelings in time. The
mere mention of Will made her heart race, though they'd had this conversation
numerous times before.
Until now, her feelings had been kept well and truly buried, but now she was worried. Because it was the last thing she wanted anyone to find out, she tried to bluff it out.
"Well, I can't say for Will, but I've been...taking piano lessons.
Someone recommended me to try it, apparently its great for relaxation."
Deanna quietly looked to her friend to see if she had brought her story, her
heart hit the floor as Beverly enthused,
"That's great!. You'll have to do a show for us in Ten Forward, maybe
Data can accompany you..."
Deanna held up her hand to stop Beverly in her tracks.
"Whoa Bev, It will a 'long' time before I try anything like that, I've
only been practicing for a couple of weeks."
Beverly looked crestfallen, but soon picked something else to discuss, her
face brightening again.
"So...How are things between you and Will?"
Deanna sighed. *This was going to be very long aerobic class...*
As all the members of the crew filed from the bridge at the end of yet
another uneventful day, Deanna walked behind Will and the Captain, chatting
amicably with Data, they all stopped in their tracks to face her when they
overheard Data's casual question.
"Dr. Crusher has informed me that you are learning to play the piano,
Counselor. Maybe I could be of some assistance, since I am fully adept at
various forms of the instrument."
Deanna physically paled as the consequences of her lie was about to be
unfolded in front of the entire senior crew, including an amazed Will Riker, who
was first to pick up on the conversation.
"Piano!? Did we hear you right, your learning to play the piano
Deanna decided her only course was to brave it out, and she was also slightly
rankled that her fellow comrades were under the impression that she was not able
to learn such an object.
"Yes, it's true...I...I wanted to learn something about music. I figured
a piano was a good start, it...it also helps me relax."
Will grinned from ear to ear, the Captain showed an amused bewilderment, and
Worf looked at her totally unbelieving. Now Deanna was cross.
"What's so funny? Don't you think I'm capable of learning such a
Will laughed outright at her, but then tried to make amends for his audacity
by apologising as they all started to walk away from her, knowing that they were
about to be assaulted with her wrath.
"I'm sorry Deanna, but don't you think a piano is a bit...difficult for a first instrument, most people usually start with a...recorder."
She stood there, open mouthed and gob-smacked, the nerve of these guys!.
Well, she was show them.
"Counselor Troi to Commander Data."
Deanna knew this was going to be the only way out of her predicament and keep
up the charade that she had managed to land herself in.
"Yes Counselor, Data here, how may I help you?"
"Could you meet me in Holodeck Two, please, in ten minutes, if you are
not doing anything of course?"
"Certainly Counselor, I will be there."
As Deanna approached the holosuite, she was sorry she had started this. The
last thing she wanted to do was learn how to play a piano, but now that she had
no choice other than confessing her sins, she braced her shoulders and barked
out her command,
"Computer, run program Troi Delta 3 omega 1...and add a piano"
The computer acknowledged its order with its customary bleep, and Deanna
entered the huge metallic doors and stepped into a 1940's New Orleans bar scene.
Jazz music blared from the band quartet in the corner, and the room was already
heaving with men all looking like Al Capone, and the women looking like they
belonged propped against a solitary lamppost out in the street.
"Computer, remove people."
Another bleep, and the room went silent as the people disappeared into thin
air. Deanna spotted the piano beside the stage that held the band. She casually
strolled over to it, lifted the lid, and tentatively pushed one ivory key. She
jumped as the sound echoed throughout the empty room. Data entered just at that
moment, and walked over to her, he smiled his own particular smile and asked
"What would you like to play Counselor? Would you like to accompany me
with Beethoven's Fifth Symphony, or perhaps Chopin, or..."
Deanna cut him off with a nervous chuckle.
"Data, I want you to teach me how to play a piano."
He stared at her slightly bemused, his confusion written all over his pale
"But I thought..."
Deanna shook her head, her regret at her blatant lie evident on her face,
"Oh, Well" Data said. »Let's start right from the very top then,
shall we? First we pull out the chair and find a comfortable position so that
you can touch both ends of the keyboard within your own arm span..."
~*~*~*~*~Locked away in their own private world, Will put his head onto her
lap, a restful, happy smile lit up his face and Deanna smiled at his obvious
pleasure. Her fingers began to play with the errant locks that teased his head.
Deanna looked down at him thoughtfully; his eyes now shut, and dared to break
the quiet, reflective mood that had embraced them.
"Will...How much do you love me?"
He opened one eye to peek at her unusual question. His grin widening at the
serious look on her face, he gently teased,
"You mean, you really don't know?"
Will watched her smile sadly and pushed himself up onto his hand to look at
her straight in the face, his other hand gently lifted her chin to make her look
at him. Deanna's breath became shallow as he exposed his love to her with his
"Deanna Troi...I love you more than words could ever say. You are my
whole universe, you are all that I live for, and for you alone, I would gladly
die...Because without you, there is no point in my existence...You 'are' my life
Will watched the tears trickle down her face. He could feel her uncertainty,
but was not sure what was causing it. Whatever it was, she knew that he would
always be there for her. One way or another, he would always be there. Always
Will gathered her within his arms and let her quietly sob into his shoulder.
His own emotions eventually quieted her as she truly realised just what she
meant to him. He felt her lightly kiss his cheek and pulled back to look at her,
her eyes still shimmered with unshed tears. Will gasped as he could feel
Deanna's inner most desires filtered through his own yearning. The need to have
her within him became second to her own needs, he barely heard her choked
It was all he needed, the meeting of their lips opened the floodgate for
every need, desire, and ache that surged throughout their bodies, both in tune
with one another, both minds in perfect harmony. Together they soared and
together they reached out and took the love that was theirs for the taking.
They were one again~*~*~*~*~
"So, Deanna...How's the piano lessons coming on, are we up for a debut show yet?"
Deanna looked nervously around at her friends as they all looked expectantly
at her. She lowered her eyes to watch Data deal out the cards and she caught his
quick glance, but knew she had no fear of being rumbled by him. Data was sworn
to secrecy. Her voice sounded over bright even to her own ears,
"Heavens No!, I've only just about mastered chopsticks!!"
They all joined her nervous laughter, but as Deanna stared at the cards
within her hand, Will studied the face that had become a permanent fixture
within his head, and he suddenly realised that she was lying!
As the game wore on, Deanna slowly came to realise that Will was watching her
intently; she threw him a grin occasionally, hoping to throw him off. As time
went on an overwhelming dread began to settle throughout her. Will knew she was
Deanna entered her quarters relieved that she'd managed to escape the
inquisition. Her hurried departure brought surprised glances from her comrades.
Now Will knew there was definitely something wrong. Deanna nearly always stayed
behind and had a drink with him.
~*~*~*~*~ »The moonlight was especially enchanting tonight, the sky was
ablaze with almost every shade of pink ever discovered, a sky for romance...
"Hi Deanna, are you O.K.?"
Deanna walked into his waiting arms and hugged him close, savouring his
warmth and his ability to wash away all the day's wrongs for her. She loved
these special intimate moments that they had come to depend on.
"Oh Will, I'm so glad that I have you...I don't know what I'd do without
you, your so right for me, I wish we didn't have to hide."
Will squeezed her tight as his feelings mirrored her own.
"I know...I know, but I don't want to spoil what we have, and we both
know that it wouldn't work any other way...You do know that, don't you
Will held her away from him so that she could see the sincerity of his words,
he saw her sigh, resigned to the knowledge that he was unquestionably right.
They looked longingly into each other«s eyes, reading the love that shone
from within their depths.
"Kiss me Will, please...Kiss me."
And once more, he drew her into his embrace, this time to show her how much he wished it could be any other way...~*~*~*~*~
Captain Jean-Luc Picard summoned his senior crew except one to the
observation lounge. They had arrived at the edge of what appeared to be a
wormhole, one that had never been charted. All the crew agreed that a probe was
the first option to see what, if anything lay on the other side.
The probe was launched and they all sat and watched its progress on the view
screen. The wormhole appeared to remain stable and the crew sat in silence to
see what would transpire when it reached the other side.
At first nothing seemed to be amiss, in fact, it appeared to be exactly the
same space as they were already in. That seemed odd to the crew even though the
probe«s data banks did not show any abnormalities. Nothing solved the mystery
as to why the wormhole was there. The captain asked Deanna if she could sense
anything. She shook her head,
"No, nothing, I sense nothing at all, it seems to be totally devoid
The captain sighed as he turned to his right-hand man,
"What do think Will, shall we go in and have a look? I for one am curious. It's an unusual phenomenon: a wormhole that leads to...the same place. »It's certainly intriguing."
Will stared at the view screen as he considered the options. Maybe a shuttle
would be wise for a first entry, but then the probe had been perfectly o.k. He
could see no valid reason not to go in, but then, what was the point if there
was nothing to see except the same bit of space? He glanced at Deanna to gauge
her feelings. Her face held no fear and she did not seem concerned, which
settled his dilemma.
"O.K. Sir, I can't see any harm in having a look...Ensign, take us in,
half impulse power."
The giant Starship entered the anomaly at a snail«s pace and the crew sat in
awe as the walls shimmered with various colours, almost like a rotating circular
rainbow. The entire bridge crew was transfixed with the sight that revealed
itself before their very eyes. On reaching the exit, Deanna turned to her fellow
crewmates to share the experience. Her blood-curdling scream echoed throughout
the ship at the horror that stared back at her.
Her beloved Will sat in his chair, his own horror reflected upon his face,
and she realised why. Deanna«s hands flew to her face, and even without a
mirror, she knew that she had aged.
Her eyes never left Will's as she reached for a lock of her hair, almost
crying out loud as she looked down at the almost white, tissue thin limp hair
that had once been her crowning glory. Will saw her despair, but as he tried to
stand to offer her some comfort, his now scrawny, weak legs gave way and he
collapsed into an undignified heap on the floor.
It was then they noticed the fine powdery substance that covered the floor
and looking up, noticed it on the Captains chair. And worse than that, his
uniform was lying in the same position as if he was still sitting there. As
realisation sunk in Deanna cried out,
"Oh my God...the Captain...He's gone!"
As Will and Deanna looked around the bridge, it was eerily silent as other
members of the crew stared back at them, all aged and all in deep shock. Will
noticed that the others on the bridge were not quite as old as himself and
Deanna appeared to be.
The tactical station was devoid of a controller, and Will racked his brains
to try and remember who was manning the communications console...Worf! Will
dragged himself around the tactical stations structure, the effort almost making
him pass out with pain as the rigors of arthritis seized his joints up beyond
recognition. Groaning with the exertion, he finally crawled around enough to see
Worf's body on the floor, curled up into a feotal position. Will could see that
Worf was breathing, but very raggedly, like a man about to die...
Will tapped his comlink badge, hoping there were people alive elsewhere alive
on the ship.
"Riker to Crusher."
His voice barely sounded like his own, but was just close enough for the
computer to acknowledge it. A few moments later, an equally crackly voice came
"Crusher here...What the hell happened?"
Will smiled painfully, still trying to catch his breath from the struggle to
"I think we've jumped into the future, but Worf is in trouble! Can you
get down here to see if you can help?"
It was a long moment before she answered,
"I'm sorry Will, but I'm crippled, my legs won't take my weight...tell
me, How's Jean-Luc?"
Will caught Deanna's eye as she too had slowly and painfully made her way
over to see Worf for herself. Somehow she had painfully managed to nearly stand
upright. The long silence was enough for Beverly to know their answer.
"He's dead...isn't he?"
Will felt her loss almost as if he'd lost his own father. His heart was heavy
when he finally replied,
"Yes. he is Beverly. I'm sorry. I think it must have been because he was
older than the rest of us. I'm not sure what's wrong with Worf. I know he's a
little younger, but he appears to be dying Bev."
Beverly Crusher told Will that it was probably Worf's Klingon physique
causing the trouble. Since his genetic make up was totally different than
theirs, there was probably nothing they could do.
Deanna had sat down beside the giant man and was gently stroking his face. It
was the only comfort she could give him, she was elated when his breath quieted
to a more peaceful, almost sighing, rhythm. Beverly dared to ask Will if he'd
checked on the rest of the ship. She heard the uncertainty in his voice when he
"No, not yet..., I've not had the chance yet, I'm about to do it now,
Will had been watching Deanna's quiet administrations. She had shut her
traumatised mind down and seemed to be stroking Worf's face on auto-pilot.
Will's heart ached as he tried to imagine dying without her beside him, doing
the same thing.
He shook himself out of his agonising to reach across and gentle rouse her.
Her blank eyes, huge with fatigue looked back at him. Will tenderly halted her
hand from its ministrations and as he did so, whispered,
Deanna blinked as the words sank in, then sobbed as she looked down onto
Worf's face. Will's own grief broke through as he watched her despair. He needed
to get her away from Worf . Between them both, they managed to make it back to
their chairs. The ensigns at the helm looked to Will for any kind of solace.
Will looked from one to the other, his bewilderment evident on his face. His
mind kicked in when he looked to the young ensign and registered the fact that
Data usually sat there...
"Computer, locate Lieutenant Commander Data."
"Lieutenant Commander Data is currently in his quarters."
All eyes looked urgently to Will once more as he spoke to thin air,
"Riker to Data."
A huge sigh was heard when he responded,
"Data here Sir."
Will almost held his breath when he asked him,
"Data, are you all right?"
"Yes Sir, I am fine, however, you sound strange Sir, is they're a
Will almost laughed out loud.
"Yes Data, there most certainly is a huge problem! Can you make your way
to the bridge pronto?"
"On my way Sir."
Data walked onto the bridge five minutes later, his yellow eyes taking in the
scene before him and his purposeful stride coming to a full stop in front of
"Commander, what happened...and where is the Captain?"
All eyes looked towards the chair, no words were needed, and after a moments
silence Will quietly looked back up to the android and his eyes pleading,
"Find out what the hell happened here, Data, and try to get us back to
where we came from, ASAP."
Before Will finished speaking, Data was at his console, his hands flying over
the controls, trying to make sense of the situation. All waited with bated
breath for his explanation. Finally, Data turned to them ready with his
"It appears that we have jumped approximately forty two years and eight
months into the future. The wormhole is still stable. If my calculations are
correct, we should be able to return back to our original destination and our
original time line, Sir."
Will sighed. Reaching over to clasp Deanna's hand, they both silently looked
at the rapidly dispersing dust that once was their beloved Captain. Will
quietly, but anxiously gave the order.
"I hope to God you're right, Mr. Data. Make it so."
Data swung back around to face his consul and prepared to turn the ship
around, heading it back into the black abyss, and hopefully, back to how they
were. Now it was Data's turn to admire the beauty of the inner wormhole.
The rest of the bridge crew now saw it in a whole new different light; the
registered minutes it took to travel through it became a lifetime of anguish.
Data witnessed as he watched his fellow cremates miraculously changed back to
their former selves. These images would be permanently etched in his fantastic
positronic brain as one of the great wonders of the universe.
Will and Deanna stared at each other waiting for the changes to start, still
unaware of the time lapse the left them to the mercies of the unknown. It was
not until they had come out the other side that they saw that were truly back to
their original state.
Also restored was a bemused, and slightly bewildered Captain, who watched his
finest crew members leaping about in front of him, crying with tears of joy and
relief. He looked around to Worf, who appeared to be happy, but quietly amazed.
Picard stood to approach the group who were still frantically hugging and
laughing. Everybody was so emotional, no one could speak.
"Did I miss something here? Number one, What's happened?"
The Captain«s two senior officers managed to contain themselves enough to
face their captain, but Picard noticed that they still held on to each others
hands as they did so. Not quite knowing where to start, Will hesitated while he
thought of the simplest way to explain.
"Well Sir, we went through the wormhole, and come out on the other
side...in the future."
Picard looked at him, still slightly bemused, not quite understanding the
"In the future eh? So, how come I didn't get to see this miraculous
He watched the look between the two again, but Beverly's arrival on the
bridge put paid to his eagerly awaited answer.
"Oh, Jean-Luc, I'm so glad you're alive!"
He looked at her startled, his face draining of colour,
"Alive...are you saying I was... dead?"
Data felt it was time for his explanation, and approaching the foursome he
readied himself for a full detailed report.
"May I suggest we go into the observation lounge Sir, I think it maybe
better if we were all sitting down."
Picard nodded his ascent, and they all proceeded to enter the observation
lounge, Will and Deanna still clasped hands.
When they finally emerged from the conference, Picard was a different man. In
fact, they were all different, the incident making a profound effect onto
everyone on board the Enterprise, except Data.
It made everyone think of their own mortality now they had seen their future
lives in full glorious colour. Deanna knew she was going to be very busy in the
upcoming weeks. Picard ordered warning beacons to be placed in various locations
around the wormhole to warn off any other unsuspecting ships and had already
relayed a communique to Starfleet to spread the information to the relevant
Deanna sat opposite Will in the Ten Forward lounge, quietly talking over the
last few day's events. Although they felt a kindred spirit about knowing how
they were going to be when they eventually grew old, it raised some worrying
doubts about their own deaths. Could either watch one or the other go? The very
idea terrified them, but neither one admitted out loud that they wouldn't want
to go without each other there.
~*~*~*~*~Later, tucked up in the huge cosy bed they were both lost in their
own thoughts until Will broke the silence,
"Deanna, don't you ever want to have a family one day?"
Deanna looked up at his face, amused at the sudden question,
"Is that a proposal Commander?"
Will chuckled at her response, surprised at her humour,
"Why Counselor, would you accept?"
Deanna hugged him close, slightly swaying him back and forth, looking around
him, anywhere other than his face, as she pondered his question.
"I don't know Will, I mean...why spoil a beautiful friendship, we have
practically everything a married couple have, love, admiration, respect,
careers, in fact, were even better, because were Imzadi."
Will scowled at her, his mouth turned into a pout,
"You're avoiding the question Deanna Troi, I asked you to marry me, and
all you've given me is an excuse... I want an answer."
Deanna visibly squirmed. She wished she were anywhere but here right now. She
hated it when he put her on the spot and groaned when he answered for her.
"Forget it Deanna, I was only teasing you. I don't want to get married
any more than you do, but, I would like some children...A child, wouldn't
Registering what he was asking her, she grinned,
"So...What would you like, boy or a girl...or both?" ~*~*~*~*~
Life slowly got back to normal on board the Enterprise E. Deanna continued on
with her piano lessons. Data had become an excellent confidente, never getting
cross at her numerous mistakes, and never getting frustrated as she failed to
master even the basics. Best of all, he never revealed her secret.
One night Will sought her out. He arrived at the holodecks and was surprised
to find the entrance well and truly locked. He was puzzled.
"Computer, location of Counselor Troi?"
"Counselor Troi is in Holosuite Two."
"Computer, access Holosuite Two, authorisation code Riker Beta four
"Access denied, password required."
Now Will was intrigued. Why was Deanna hiding away to take piano lessons, and
more importantly, who was teaching her?
He wandered back along the corridor determined to get to the bottom of her
secrecy. He was convinced now that things weren't as they seemed. She was very
evasive, not just with him, but with everyone. He wondered why she avoided him.
True, in some ways, he avoided her, but only to keep his traitorous feelings
under wraps. When he was around her, she could read him like a book and he
suspected she felt the same way. He had his own way of dealing with his dilemma,
and it sure as hell was not learning to play the piano!
Will began to keep an eye on her times spent at the holodeck. Several times
he had been flummoxed when she had gone to the holosuite, stayed for maybe half
an hour, leave for a while, and then go back. He'd gathered enough information
now to know her routine and the next time that she visited them, he was waiting,
around the corner, out of sight.
Deanna approached the holosuite and barked out her request, furtively looking
around to make sure no one was within ear shot,
"Computor, run programme Troi Delta three Omega one, plus piano, minus
She walked inside and Will stepped out from his hiding place, his grin
breaking accross his face,
'So the lady really is taking piano lessons'
Will started as he heard another set of footsteps come along the corridor.
Will jumped back to his hidey hole as he heard Data's voice request entrance to
the holosuite, and Will all but laughed as he visualised him teaching the tone
deaf Deanna Troi how to play what he considered to be one of the hardest
Will wandered off to ten forward mindfully keeping an eye on the time, making
his way back just before Deanna predictably turned back up at the same holosuite.
"Computer, run programme Troi Alpha five Omega two, password
Deanna entered her own little world and Will stood and watched her go, he had
a strange feeling, but shrugged it off as silly, but determination now surged
through his veins to find out just what Deanna's little 'secret' was.
As the rest of the senior crew slept and after he had ensured Deanna was
safely tucked up in her bed, Will made his way down to the holodeck. Beads of
sweat broke out on his brow as he relayed Deanna's secret code into the computer
banks, relieved when the doors sprung open and shocked when he saw the scene
playing out before him.
It was a beach, a tropical beach, complete with coconut trees, the softest
sand he had ever seen, and a surf that just begged to be dived into. What really
took his breath away was the sunset. He had never seen anything like it. A
mixture of pinks and lilacs played across the sky, and the moon, so low you
could almost touch it, glowed like a beacon. His attention was attracted by a
movement from along the shoreline. As the figure approached, Will felt
everything fall into place.
Deanna could not wait to escape into her own little world, this was the only
way she was ever going to have the best of both worlds. Will as her best friend
in real life, and Will as her lover in her secret life, and now it was time for
her secret life.
She approached the holosuite and dished out her usual command. Tonight she
had made a particular effort. She had replicated a sarong and her mane of black
ringlets had been pinned back above one ear with a large lotus blossom.
Deanna entered in breathless anticipation. She never tired of this beautiful
scene. Besides having Will to share it with, Deanna loved the peace and serenity
she felt whenever she was here, which was becoming more and more frequent,
especially since the wormhole incident.
Time had become precious and Deanna needed Will more and more to fill the
void that the experience had left. Sadly she also knew she was going to have to
cut back before it started invading her real life. She made herself comfortable
on the sand and watched the surf roar to the beach, she felt herself relax, and
right on cue, he came along the shoreline.
"Hello Will, here, come and sit down." She patted the sand beside
her, and he plopped himself down beside her, throwing her a grin.
"Hi...This place is fantastic isn't it?"
He saw her nod her agreement, and together they watched the sunset,
marvelling at the array of colours that played before them. After a while Deanna
turned and asked him,
"Will...Don't you ever want to have a family some day?"
Her question took him by surprise, "I guess so...Why, do you?"
He watched her nod again as she looked into the distance, lost in thought,
"Yes I do. Will, what would you say if I asked you to marry me?"
She turned to look at him head on, and knew that she caught him on the spot.
"Well...I'd probably say yes...I think! Why, are you going to ask me
She frowned at the shortened name, then thought better of it as she pondered
his turned-about question.
"I don't know, what would you really say Will" I...I need to
Will reached across to gently caress her face, her sigh caught in his hand as
she closed her eyes to wallow in the sensation that coursed throughout her body
at his touch.
"Deanna...I love you. I want you to be my wife, I want to have
babies...I want all of it Deanna."
As his lips touched hers, he gently laid her down on the sand, the kiss
deepened, and they were lost once more to the magic of the moonlight...
Much later, they both stood to say goodbye, Deanna kissed him and turned
away, her heart heavy. But she knew it would only be for a short time before he
would be in her arms again. As she walked away from him she spoke to thin air.
"Computer, end programme'."
The room shimmered back to its yellow squared grid. As the doors opened,
something made her look back. She thought her eyes were deceiving her as she
stared at the man standing in the middle of the room. Time stood still as they
looked at each other, emotions played across their faces as the whole story
unfolded before them.
"Finally Will broke the silence.
He was left speechless when she turned and walked away from him. The
holodoors closed shut as she disappeared around the corner out of sight. It was
several moments before he berated himself and set off after her. Knowing that
she would head back to her own quarters, he also knew that she would not
acknowledge him until they were behind closed doors. He used his own override
access code to enter her quarters. She would not have willingly let him in.
Will found her staring out of her porthole, her misery radiated all around
her. Deanna's voice was quiet as she finally plucked up the courage to ask.
"How long have you known?"
Will was not quite sure if her problem was him knowing about the programme,
or the lie. Whichever it was, he had to be very careful.
"Not long. You know Deanna, it's o.k...I understand how you feel."
She whirled around, her embarrassment giving her a faint pink glow as she
stormed at him.
"How can you possibly understand Will? You don't want a relationship,
you've never wanted a relationship with me. You left me behind Will Riker...you
left me behind."
Her voice broke on her last words.
Will was mortified at her outburst. He thought Deanna had understood why he'd
left her and that they'd overcome that hurdle. He hurried over to her and caught
her in his strong arms as she let her grief finally release.
"Oh my god Imzadi, I am so sorry...I never meant to hurt you. I thought
we had something better than that. I swear to you, I wanted to, I truly wanted
to come back for you, but I was too late. You had already left for the academy
and I didn't want to ruin things for you, so I left you alone. "
"I knew I had blown it and I also knew you would not have taken me back.
But I never forgot you Deanna. It was you who kept me alive on dangerous
missions, and I was determined to find you again and put my mistakes to right. I
had every intention of being with you again one day. Seeing you on the other
side of that wormhole made me realise how much I want us to be together. I want
us to be together 'til the end Deanna. I want it to be you who comforts me as I
take my last breath."
Deanna had stopped crying and watched his face intently as he poured out his
heart to her. Will's truthfulness was unquestionably honest, and she found
herself crying again as she thought of him dying in her arms. However, she too
now would not want it any other way. Now they just had to deal with the dilemma
that they were in. Will hugged her until she quieted and decided it was time to
let her in on his own secret.
"Deanna, I want to show you something. Will you come with me?"
Will's eyes begged her to follow him. She sniffed and nodded. They headed
back towards the holodeck, and Deanna stood with wonderment as Will entered his
own personal access code,
"Computer, run programme Riker, Gamma Echo one Alpha three, password
Deanna looked into his eyes as he spoke, her curiosity well and truly piqued.
As the doors opened, Will added,
"Computer, remove Deanna Troi."
They entered Will's own fantasy world. Deanna stood in the centre of the huge
room, surprised as she came face to face with a huge double bed inside a rustic
log cabin. A roaring log fire blazed in the centre of the wall, and her eyes
fell to the large fluffy hearth rug, her heart doing a little flip at the image
that immediately sprung to mind. She looked up to Will's face, her astonishment
evident, his face apprehensive.
"Are you telling me you've been doing the same thing Will?"
He nodded, his own voice breaking slightly.
"Y'see Deanna, I can't live without your love either. I wanted...Needed,
the best of both worlds too."
As they both walked into each others arms once more, they knew then that they
had come full circle, and things were never going to be the same for them again,
and most of all, there was going to be no need for any more secrets and lies.