Bethy
**************** Willy Billy Boo ****************
Ohh, Dee," he moaned and Deanna stiffened.
Dee?" she asked, trying her hardest to maintain a neutral tone. She
knew that Will was her Imzadi, and that gave their love an incomparable specialness,
but she was still so new at this that she couldnt quell the insecurity
that constantly threatened. She wanted to trust him and, as he would say, 'go
with it, but at the same time, she had to know. Will *was* experienced,
and it was entirely possible hed unwittingly called out the name of a
former lover. And if that were true, she didnt know if she could bear
it. But she had to know.
Yeah," he said, true confusion at her response emanating so strongly
that she was immediately reassured. Dee. As in short for Deanna. As in
a nickname. Whats wrong?" It didnt take him long to switch
from confused defense to the offensive. Great, now hed even gotten her
thinking in militaristic terms.
Nothing," she said lightly and leaned back in to kiss him again.
She could sense his inner struggle " let it go and enjoy the passion of
the moment? Or force the issue and make her tell what bothered her? Even before
he pulled back, she knew which side had won. It was nice to know that she was
influencing him even as he was influencing her.
Deanna, Im serious, whats wrong?"
She sighed. Its stupid."
He raised his eyebrows but said nothing.
All right, I got insecure when you said 'Dee."
Once again, he was confused. His brow furrowed as he tried to see why that would
bother her, and then understanding struck. You thought I was thinking
about someone else?" She didnt need to be an empath to see his anger.
Im sorry! I couldnt help it. Nobodys ever called me
Dee before."
But still...! Deanna, I may not understand this exactly, but what we have
here, even though its new, is special. It doesnt compare to *any*thing
Ive ever known before. How could you even *think* that I was thinking
of somebody else?!"
I said Im sorry!" Things had been so perfect and then her insecurity
had to go and ruin it. Im an empath and I study psychology, so I
understand emotions, Will, but that doesnt mean I have utter control over
my own! Yes, this is incredibly special to me, but then again, its my
first time. I said were Imzadi, but until now I had doubts as to whether
the whole thing was a myth! And maybe it is! Maybe the only reason I thought
this was Imzadi was because I have nothing to compare it to! And then it would
be entirely possible for you to be thinking of someone else!" Her voice
rose as she spoke until she was practically shouting at him, but at the same
time, tears flowed down her cheeks.
Oh, Deanna, Im sorry." He wrapped his arms around her and drew
her in to comfort her. And himself. I will tell you now, and I will tell
you as often as you need to hear it, Imzadi is real, and we are Imzadi. Believe
me, this is special and wonderful and beautiful and unique. And there is no
one Id even want to think about but you."
I love you."
He smiled at her words and kissed her. Ditto." He kissed her again.
So, Dee..."
She grimaced and he laughed. What, you dont like it, Dee?"
he taunted her.
Not exactly," she admitted.
Whats wrong with it, Dee? Its not so bad."
I know." She bit her lip. But I dont like it."
Aw, Dee, cmon. Its just a name."
Stop it." She was tiring of this game. She knew that it would only
encourage him to show her dislike, but couldnt let it go. They may have
succeeded in squashing her insecurity for now, but that name just made her cringe.
Names mean something, Will. And I dont like what that name means."
She couldnt even bring herself to pronounce it.
He surrendered. Okay," he said, but she could hear the amused undertones
and knew she hadnt heard the last of it.
The blissful mood gone, they got up and began their long trek in the jungle
once again. Every now and then, Will would glance her way like a little boy
with a snake and whisper, Dee." She had to force herself not to react,
not realizing that her aloof calmness only served to further egg him on.
Finally she had enough. Her mind began forming a plan, and with a goal in mind,
she was able to tolerate his teasing until they stopped again. They set up camp
for the night, got some food and then turned their attention to more important
matters.
Kissing.
And...more.
He was trailing kisses on her neck when she remembered her plan. He gently nipped
her ear and she let out a contented sigh. Oh, Bill, thats just perfect."
He jerked back. What did you say?"
She opened her eyes to look her most innocent. Why, I gave you a nickname,
Bill. Whats the matter, dont you like it?" She echoed his earlier
words. Its just a name, Bill."
Aw, Deanna, thats not fair."
Whats not fair? I dont see any problem with it, Bill."
His jaw clenched and she hid a smile. Turnabout was fun.
Do you really hate it that much, Bill?" she cooed. I can stop
it if you want. Just say the word."
He didnt want to say it, because then hed have to quit his teasing
of her, and admit that he couldnt take what he dished out.
After watching him squirm for a few moments, Deanna took pity. Tell you
what, I wont call you Bill if you dont call me Dee. No more teasing
with the names, okay?"
Sure. Fine."
They each showed remarkable restraint on the rest of the journey, but when they
finally arrived at their destination, about to be bombarded with the real world
filled with other people, Deanna got the last shot in before she darted over
to the ship. Well, we made it, didnt we, Bill?"
She could hear his low growl as he ran after her, but knew that there was nothing
he could do now. She smiled at him impishly and then laughed at the mock glare
she received. It didnt matter; they were Imzadi, and the Universe was
theirs.
The End...or the beginning. ;)